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once again it has been ages since i posted. but over the course of the past few days/weeks, i ve realised alot of things have changed, i thought i spend some time on thoughts.
i started to do my runs again, generates alot of thought.
ctc has been a pretty interesting course, the build up to it and itself has made me realise alot of things about my self. that well i am changing quite a bit, some parts of it which i really dont like. most of which i dont really like, pretty much in a confused state.
social patterns have also began to show similarities in places other than what i first thought. puts me in a very strange place.
my nsf tour is well soon over, i cant say it has been a bad time, it has definately been very enriching. discovered alot of things about myself, but when i reflect today over what comd tradoc spoke about, you know i have so many regrets, of things that i wanted to do. which i really really regret not doing. things i set out to do, but never accomplished it because of inadaquacies, or just a lack of the will to. i dare actually say i will miss my time in army, you know it has been a crazy, really crazy time in 1gds, but if you ask me if i do it again, hell i will. i definately will.And this time i ll make it right.
its been a pretty hectic transition phase, my friends tell me its just a phase in life we ll get thru, and sunny blue skies will come again, somehow, the way i m going i dont quite see it..
focus in life has also shifted much. i feel myself more growing somewhat inward.
i hate it that i have to type something like that all the time in this place, can i qualify first that its not something i really like doing. i do it to keep somesort of check or soemthing.memories of somesort.
i gotta wake up early tmr, will be heading to the field for a short walk, prob be the last time i wear all that equipment in a long while. i shld get some rest.
something came across in youtube again, haha old favourites.
and i,,miss you the most. (:
i started to do my runs again, generates alot of thought.
ctc has been a pretty interesting course, the build up to it and itself has made me realise alot of things about my self. that well i am changing quite a bit, some parts of it which i really dont like. most of which i dont really like, pretty much in a confused state.
social patterns have also began to show similarities in places other than what i first thought. puts me in a very strange place.
my nsf tour is well soon over, i cant say it has been a bad time, it has definately been very enriching. discovered alot of things about myself, but when i reflect today over what comd tradoc spoke about, you know i have so many regrets, of things that i wanted to do. which i really really regret not doing. things i set out to do, but never accomplished it because of inadaquacies, or just a lack of the will to. i dare actually say i will miss my time in army, you know it has been a crazy, really crazy time in 1gds, but if you ask me if i do it again, hell i will. i definately will.And this time i ll make it right.
its been a pretty hectic transition phase, my friends tell me its just a phase in life we ll get thru, and sunny blue skies will come again, somehow, the way i m going i dont quite see it..
focus in life has also shifted much. i feel myself more growing somewhat inward.
i hate it that i have to type something like that all the time in this place, can i qualify first that its not something i really like doing. i do it to keep somesort of check or soemthing.memories of somesort.
i gotta wake up early tmr, will be heading to the field for a short walk, prob be the last time i wear all that equipment in a long while. i shld get some rest.
something came across in youtube again, haha old favourites.
and i,,miss you the most. (: